25 weeks

I am currently laying on the couch with my feet pressed against the wall in the air trying to decrease the swelling.

This swelling is becoming a daily thing, it's kind of annoying in the sense it just gives me something to worry about.

Today it was caused my bowling. Yup I went bowling but for a good cause, a fundraiser for heart and stroke. It was just 5 pin so the balls were just the tiny fit in your hand ones. Hubby took a few of my turns for me whenever I got too winded.

That's also happening a lot lately too, I'm out of breath all the time, my poor lungs must be squished. I even had to get Hubby to put on socks for me the other day I was just too winded to bend to do it.

Other than the swelling and breathlessness I don't think there's much else going on. Of course I am getting larger ;) oh and I'm pretty sure baby V is breached currently. His kicks were much stronger and higher until just over a week or so ago. Now they feel lighter and are very low. At first I was worried but it sounds like it's common. Still gonna mention it to my doctor next week.

That is all folks!

Christmas Fever

Christmas is less than a month away!

I hope all my American friends had themselves a yummy Thanksgiving :)

We have had a lazy night tonight, I've spent most of it on Pinterest collecting all sorts of Christmas ideas... The tree just might go up this week.




I had planed on posting a link but it doesn't seem to have worked...

Oh well, anyways I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Hello Monday

I hope everyone had a nice weekend, the weather here had been fairly nice but with the exception of admiring it from inside my car as I drove around for work I didn't really get to enjoy it that much.

I've started to blog many times this past week, and each time I gave up. I am still trying to wrap my brain around the news I posted last about Hubby's cousin and her little family.

I don't remember if I told you ahead of time there was concern but basically this is the short version of it all: Being that she was pregnant with twins and considered high risk because of this fact alone girl cousin was having ultrasounds every 3 weeks. Baby "B" had always been measuring slightly smaller than baby "A". Two weeks ago the size difference between that two was becoming larger, and it was determined that baby "B"'s placenta had formed in a location that was causing him not to receive as much oxygen etc as he should. That is when they developed a plan to deliver early December and monitor them both with weekly ultrasounds.... Between that day and last Monday (7days) baby B's heart stopped. Baby b will stay where he is and deliver after his brother.

My understanding is that baby A is right on track where he should be for size. And the information that was given to family is that they may not deliver until their original due date late January. I haven't spoken to them personally yet so not too sure where things really stand. We chose not to partake in family dinner yesterday, not too sure if there even was one at hubby's aunts house. But if there was we figured we would stay away and let the immediate family be together.

This has all be very upsetting news of course. It's shocking because you know twins are high risk but you rarely hear about people losing them. For me this has caused the fear I experienced earlier to return again. Having had a loss myself I was scared from the beginning for this pregnancy, counting days and weeks until finally when I didn't notice the fear disappeared. But it's back. There was nothing she could have done to prevent it. That scares me beyond belief.

I also think of how she must be feeling now that she continues to carry both of her sons until the suriviving one is ready to be born. I had to go a week walking around knowing I had a missed miscarriage and I think I was a zombie. In my case I had only had 10 weeks of knowing I was pregnant. For her this is a fully formed baby in there, she is in her third trimester and potentially will be continuing on for another 8 or so weeks. She is stronger than me I don't know if I could do it.

I am very thankful for the little kicks I am feeling as I am writing this.
I am also very thankful to have successfully reached my 24 week milestone yesterday and to know if he needed to be born my son would stand a chance at survival.

My mood this last week has been frightened and low, but I feel it improving.

A little bit of cute and a lot of sadness

So this will be short. As promised here are the Onesies I made. I am really pleased and have lots of more ideas for our little one.

Here comes the sadness. Girl cousin had another ultrasound today to check the growth of the smaller twin.... Sometime between last Mondays scan and today his heart stopped beating...

We just found out. I am trying to digest this news we just found out this last hour. I wanna puke, wanna cry but hormones are a funny thing and at a true reason to the tears are dry.

Quick update

Still nothing too exciting going on.

Just really tired, I've been feeling like I can't keep up with time. It's just flying by.
I'm slacking on housework, slacking on my paperwork for my job, slacking on gift making (eek running out of time!), I am pretty much Queen Slacker. Bow down before me my loyal subjects ;) lol kidding of course no bows nessicary.

I've started making a private registry of baby items, once I make my final decision on things I will make it available for family and friends. It's been a nice way to pass the time, so much to choose from tho.

Girl cousin's baby shower for the twins is this weekend. I need to get my butt in gear with those onesies. It will be nice to see family from out of town, Not sure who all will be attending. The mood is supposed to be joyous, but it will be interesting to see if everyone can keep it up... The reason for that being she found out this week that one of the twins is not growing as much as expected. Developmentally is on track but the location of the placenta may be causing problems. She will for sure deliver in December. They are trying to get her to 35 weeks to allow the little one a better chance of survival. Of course there is a risk he may not make it that long, so she is having weekly ultrasounds. Nothing else she can do, it's all because of where the placenta attached.

This has caused me to obviously worry for her, but I've noticed it also makes me worried for my own little one. To have no control like that of the situation it's nerve wracking. Gotta keep up the positive thoughts and prayers.

This has to be kept short since I am working a split today. Gonna try for a quick cat nap then back to work I go. Later friends.

Ps I noticed everyone else is back in full force with their blogging, (I think everyone slowed down for about a week) I have much to read and catch up on! My goal is to read and comment accordingly by Saturday! :)

Nothing too exciting...

Well I had planned on sharing an article with you today; however I can no longer find the link... So I'm still on the hunt and hopefully will share it soon.

That leaves me with not much to say... But I wanted to say Hi anyway :)

I am working on making/ designing a bunch of onesies for girl cousin's twins. Her baby shower is next weekend and I'm tight on funds right now so I'm being creative. I will be on the hunt for supplies this weekend and will show them off soon :)

I hope everyone has been having a good week <3