Apples, Pumpkins and a Corn maze

I love Fall. Capital L O V E it. 

Hands down my favourite season. 

I love the sunny weather with the cool crisp breeze and the way the air smells. 

I love the colours of the leaves and how gorgeous everything looks. 

And the food. Fall means soups and hot meals and of course thanksgiving. 

I pretty much love everything about the season. 

I hope my kiddos grow up to love it as much as I do :) 

Today Hubby and I took Mav for our first little family fall adventure. Being parents is great for reliving all those fun things you did as a kid. I honestly can't remember the last time I went apple picking or picked a pumpkin straight from the patch. These are things I hope we make a yearly thing. We attempted to go to a pumpkin patch last year but they were closed when we got there and we improvised with a little photo session instead. This year was the real deal, tractor ride and all. 

 

Despite his facial expression Mav had a great time lol I think he was focused on something here. Practically impossible to get him to look right at the camera with so much else going on. 

We went back to the same farm we went berry picking at this summer. One of the main reasons we chose to return was for the tractor. Mav really loved it last time and I couldn't confirm any of the other orchards had one. 

We sat right up front to get the best view 

Apple picking was first on our agenda, Mav figured out what to do pretty quick and luckily the trees were nice and low to the ground :) 

Naturally he sampled some lol 

We picked out four pumpkins for our little family. Mav even helped pick and gather them. It was so cute watching him try to pick then up. You can barely see it but he's still holding onto his apple lol at one point he was holding his apple in his teeth attempting to pick up one of the larger pumpkins. 

After we picked our stash we waited for the tractor to come back and get us. Still working on that apple lol must have been good. 

We finished off by attempting the corn maze... It was tough! We made it out which I feel counts as a success .. Even if the way out we took was labelled emergency exit and not the exit we were supposed to find. By the time we found it I didn't care I had a toddler and husband both getting cranky! We probably won't attempt the maze again for a few years lol 

It was an exhausting afternoon, but tons if fun :) 

Not a good day

Day one of watching what I eat and I am so angry and agitated at the world I feel I could breakdown any moment. 

I did breakdown and have a small bowl of ice cream. I feel awful for doing it but I'm struggling today. 

My day started with me realizing I didn't know what to eat for breakfast. I stood staring into the fridge and pantry wondering what my blood sugar was and if eating certain items would push it too high. I really wish my dr had of taken initiative and set me up with a glucometer so I didn't have to guess. I decided on a bowl of rice crispies and avoided my usual glass of OJ. 

Mav stuck to his routine of 1/4 cup OJ mixed with water and blueberries. Except he decided to have a 20 minute meltdown because he saw me dilute his drink with water. We are talking major meltdown here; screaming, crying, throwing his body on the ground meltdown. 

Eventually he/we calmed down and managed to get him to daycare. Afterwards I went and retraced my steps from our walk the day before (a walk which had every muscle in my body aching today) and thankfully found his iPod which we had lost. I was up all night stressing about losing it, it plays his bedtime music which is a big part of his routine. It was crazy humid today so I'm feeling quite disgusting at only 9am. 

With the iPod found I went on my way to my first clients home. Apparently there had been an accident involving a car and a bicycle just around the corner from where I was going, on the ground laid the cyclist with a blanket over them... I can't say for sure but I'm 90% sure he was still on the ground and not in the ambulance for a reason. Not a good one. That shook me up pretty good but after a time out to breathe I continued on my day. 

All day long I felt hungry, hungry and stressed because I don't know what to eat. I was given no diet guidelines, and no idea what's actually going on in my body. Stress level increases. 

I came home early, got a few things done around the house, picked up Mav and start making dinner. Once dinner is ready realize I can't serve half of it to Mav since we are not to introduce new foods until allergy testing and the other half he refuses to eat. 

Cue more meltdowns. Which leads to agitated parents who start fighting with each other. I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before but we are bad fighters, as in all the things you shouldn't say end up being said. 

With heavy tension still in the air I get Mav ready and put to bed. I spend the next few hours by myself watching tv and eventually caving in for that ice cream all which stewing with agitation and anger. 

I'm not sure if its my hormones or what but lately I am so easily agitated. With everything/everyone.  Plus Mav seems to really be pushing boundaries and I spend most of my time with him telling him not to do things and attempting to discipline bad behavior. Add in my husband also seems to be in a funk and spits more criticism out of his mouth than usefulness. 

I'm at my breaking point. 

I need an escape but I'm trapped. 

I need the ppl around me to stop being so miserable too. 

I need support and not criticism. 

I need to stop being a bitch but I don't know how ... 

Ugh. 

End rant. 

I knew it

I knew it. I had a feeling. 

Last week I drank this guy and had some blood taken 

Well today my family doctor informed me I failed. Not by a lot but enough that I now have to cut out all sweets and make sure to follow a diabetic diet. 

I see my OB for the first time next week so we will have to see what he says about the results. There's a good chance I will be doing the 2-3hour test. Hopefully I can just stay diet controlled.

I wish I could say I am optimistic I would pass the next test but I'm not. I was having a good morning the day I tested. Just the day before I spent about 20 minutes laying on my living room floor because I felt so dizzy while trying to get Mav and I ready to go out. That happens a lot the past couple months... Being a nurse I know enough about diabetes to know that the way I've been feeling is most likely from my blood sugar fluctuating. 

I love sweets. And so does hubby which is going to make this even harder. But I guess we will just have to wait until next week and see what the new dr says. 

I really could go for a big bowl of ice cream right now...