Hello I'm back :)

So I took a little break, unintentionally but it was needed.

I can't believe January is over, I haven't posted since the beginning of the month, since telling you my 2012 goals lol opps. I just reviewed my goal list actually and I suppose I could scratch off my break as being some "me" time. Ideally I'd like me time more regularly tho.

I've been peeking at everyone's blogs, I still have lots to catch up on though but I've seen some exciting news on a few so far :)

So what have I been doing...
Well to sum it all up as short as possible I have been working tons (almost finished work! Yahoo!),
I've been spending some quality time with hubby,
trying to prepare for baby V,
I've been taking pictures! Despite my inability to post them and link up each week I have been taking them! I've had some issues with my computer but I think/hope it is all resolved.
I have had a few little craft projects on the go I'll show you some possibly in the next week when they are finished.

Other than that it's all been pretty mellow, nothing too exciting just life in general. I was feeling mentally exhausted.

There of course still things being wrapped up from 2011, not so fun things...
In addition to preparing myself mentally for the year mark of our miscarriage, my parents decided they had had enough with their relationship. I don't remember if this was wrote about on this blog of my old one but they almost ended things last year, maybe the fall sometime. Anyways they have decided they are too far gone, I had a suspicion at Christmas but didn't say anything. I'm sad of course but I think I'm ok with it, it's not a shock like last time.

But I'm not going to get into details on anything this post, I wanted to say I am back and here's a recap and I will be back again soon :)

And I will leave you with a pic of my nice fat swollen feet and ankles, I now have to wear hubby's shoes mine are too tight. If you look close you might be able to see my thumb imprint on my left foot.

2012 Resolutions & Goals

So we are a few days into the new year, I hope it's off to a good start for everyone.
We are still wrapping up the remaining tasks of 2011 (getting the car repaired etc), but so far no new catastrophes have occured. Hopefully this year will bring only good things and maybe even be the best one yet :)

I am always hesitant to make a resolution, I feel people including myself pick grand ideas that lose steam weeks or months in. So this year I decided I would pick more specific smaller short term goals, more realistic and easier to achieve.

My goals for the year include the following:

1. Be more organized in every aspect of my life. For this I plan on starting with a routine and expanding my organization into my home environment. Between Pinterest and the organization blogs I read I have plenty of small ideas for this. Even if I only accomplish 1 or 2 of these projects I will be more organized than when I started making this goal met :)

2. Take more pictures. I used to be just like my friend Maria and take pictures of EVERYTHING. It probably was annoying at times lol, my camera was always on hand and every moment captured. This past year was exhausting mentally for me and I lost that desire to take pictures. 2011 was probably the all time low for picture taking for me ever. So to help me get back into the swing of things I am going to do one of the 52 week projects. I've only found this one to link up with so far but if I find more I'll link to them also. I figure once a week is small enough to not be overwhelming, I may take more pictures but only post once a week.

3. Cut out fast food. Here is it, this is my over ambitious goal that I always fail. So I'm going to take it a month at a time and cut out fast food for the rest of January. I could have said all of Jan except I ate at McDonalds yesterday lol.

4. Be a better wife.  Where this goal comes from is from my reflections of the past year, our first year of marriage, the stressors we've encountered, and the craziness of life. Like any couple we've had rough patches over our 8 1/2 years together, and I recognize this baby is going to change the dynamic of our lives even more. I don't want to be one of those married couples that put all their focus on the baby and forget each other. So I'm planning my valentines gift already and it's a gift that lasts all year, in addition to that I am making a better effort to think 2 steps ahead of him and do some of those little things we take for granted. All simple enough but those little things matter.

5. Knock a few things off my 35 before 35 list. How perfect is it I already have a list of mini goals to include in my new years list ;)

6. Take time for me to be me. Life is crazy and stressful and overwhelming at times. I struggle to find the time to do things I "want" to do rather than "need" to do. So I'm highly considering taking designated Me time. I'm not sure how often yet, and maybe creating a routine (goal #1) will help find the time.

7. Be a better sister and friend. This one always has room for improvement. No specific ideas on how to start this yet but again with being a better wife it's the little things that matter.

 I'm sure I could think up even more goals for the year but I'll start with these and see how far I get ;)

Good luck to everyone with all their goals and resolutions!

Recap of 2011

Happy New Years! I am so ready for the new year, I feel like 2011 was the most stressful year for me yet. This new year can only be better. I have my resolution/goal list but before I share that I thought it would be good to do a recap. So let's see 2011...

January
+ started with finding out days after New Years that I was pregnant! After the initial shock and panic this was a good thing. ( we weren't preventing but not 100% sure we were ready)
+ next came a move from our tiny apartment to our 3 story townhouse. Yay for more room!

February
- at 9 weeks found out we had a missed miscarriage
- a week later my body finally tried to miscarry only to have me hemorrhage and have an emergency d&c, narrowly escaping a blood transfusion.
+ I started my first ever blog after discovering others had done the same to deal with loss

March, April, May, June
* These months all sort of blended together for me
- I was struggling to cope with our loss, depression had crept in, anger and jealousy towards anyone happy were also present emotions.
- my relationships with friends, family and my husband were all damaged because of my inability to cope.
- I got let go from my job in early April because of senior co workers dislike of me and my unwillingness to to kiss her ass.
+ because of their being no real reason to terminate me I got a pretty sweet lay off payout
+/- in June I started working again for a previous employer, not ideal but it was a paycheck.

July
+ BFP
- spotting pregnancy scare
+ healthy heartbeat at dating ultrasound found out EDD March 11, 2012

August, September
+ Incubus concert with Hubby (our fave band)
-/+ pregnancy was "outed" at cousins wedding
+ made it into the 2nd trimester
- my parents reveal they are on the verge of splitting

October
+ Hubby and I survive the first year of marriage. Celebrate 1 year married, 8 years together
+ found out were having a boy!
+ started my new blog

November
Nothing terribly exciting or bad happened that I can think of

December
- emergency visit to the vet for the dog $$$
- minor car accident
+ babies are born for cousin and friend
- and December 31st to end the year with a bang I slipped on ice and fell smoking my head of the pavement.

Looking at it all it doesn't feel as bad, however in-between it all there has been lots of stress with fighting with hubby, family, pregnancy hormones etc.
Good riddance 2011