2 ingredient pancakes

Today Ty got to eat pancakes! 

He gobbled them right up (as he does with most food) and ate three. I'm sure he would have eaten more but I wanted to save two to test how they freeze and thaw. 

Apparently different versions of these pancakes can be found all over the internet so I'm not really sure who gets the credit. I found them via Facebook. 

Seriously tho these are delicious, I tried them myself and a perfect addition to our FPIES cook book. 

And simple. Because remember I can not cook worth my life. 

Beat 2 eggs and mix with two small mashed (or one large) bananas. Cook in non stick frying pan or use a safe oil if available. 

That's it. Really it's that easy. 

The first couple I made looked pretty rough but by the last one I had figured out how they would cook and flip. 

the monster in my house

You know the one, he's approximately 3 feet tall, sandy blonde hair and blue eyes.
Often referred to as Mav.

I don't know how much more this I can take, I am pretty much at my wits end with him. I feel like I have not done anything except for yell and and timeout and more in over a week. I don't know why, but all of a sudden he's turned into an absolute psycho child. Dare I even say it.. an asshole. Yup I said it, it is the truth. He is being so aggressively bad that I can barely stand being in the same room with him at this point. I find myself making excuses to leave him with hubby any chance that I get so that I can get away. I need to for my own sanity.

And then I feel guilty for feeling like this with my child.
 

I'm pretty sure he is purposely trying to get me angry at this point. Why I'm not too sure, jealous maybe of the time and attention Ty needs?

 I tried taking him out just me and him to see if that would help. We went to the movies we had a lot of fun, but as soon as the movie was over it was time to go home he turn back into his psychotic self epic tantrum battles hitting screaming you name it it's happening.
 

Time outs don't work. Time ins don't work. Tossing toys into the "garbage" doesn't work (punishment for throwing toys or causing harm with the toy). Yelling doesn't work. Talking in a serious tone doesn't work. Talking in a polite "please stop that etc" tone doesn't work. Sending him to his room doesn't work. Nothing works.

It's hard to give positive reinforcement when there is nothing positive going on.

So I guess starting tomorrow I'm just going to stop yelling. I'm not sure what I'm going to do but clearly he's trying to get a rise out of me.

Terrible two's my ass... this had better not be what three's are going to be like.

A FPIES update

Today October 14, 2014 is the very first Global FPIES Awareness day.

    The boys wearing the shirt we won.

Ty is also 11 months old today so it only seems fitting I post an update. 

At 11 months Ty is 19lb 4oz and 54cm long. We have been monitoring his growth monthly since meeting the specialist and despite being petite still I am very pleased with his progress. He is now the same weight Mav was at 12 months. Still on the smaller side of average but average none the less. 

He now has 11 foods we can call safe; sweet potatoes, butternut squash, plums, pears, lamb, quinoa, white potato, carrots, broccoli, banana, and apple. We retried his soy formula and are now using that to supplement as well for convienence (aka freedom). We have two food trials we are working on, black beans and avocado both are looking very promising. 

Unfortunately we had to remove peaches from his list of safes as they seemed to be causing some chronic symptoms. He was having increased reflux, excessive hiccups, stomach pains and poor sleep. All of which improved since stoping. I hope to re try the peaches again in the spring or summer and see if we can get them back. It may be ambitious but fingers crossed. He still has three trigger foods (rice, oats, milk) that cause acute reactions. 

I have been focusing on finger foods so that Ty can practice his pincher grasp as well as chewing. Now that he has a more varied diet it finally allows us to work on those developmental milestones and catch up. 

Focusing on that black bean... 

Cheecha puffs and freeze dried fruit have made life seem more normal, we have a quick easy no prep snack that I can carry in my diaper bag or purse. 

Air puffed potatoes! Canadian made!

  Enjoying his snack :)

This little guy seriously loves food so much it breaks my heart at times. We have been making such good progress tho and I have to remind myself of that at times. Some days the emotional toll hits me. Hits me hard. I would love to just be "normal" and feed him as I please. To go out somewhere and grab a bite and offer him a bite without the stress of a potential reaction. Even just doing the food trials is nerve wracking enough to want to hide away from it all. I worry excessively and watch the clock countdown to the two and three hour mark post meal before I dare breathe. Even trying different variations of a safe food is nerve wracking, you never know if the protein component is the same in each. 

I have been reading blog posts and stories all day, taking a glimpse into the lives of the other FPIES families. We are in a good place, I know that. There are many others more complicated with more triggers and less safes. It helps level my head a little but most of all it makes me feel for those families. Together we are getting through this, supporting one another, sharing recipes, tips, resources and sometimes just words of encouragement. 

Going forward the plan with Ty is to see his specialist as well as an allergist in December. I had expressed concern about Ty having IgE allergies, nuts especially since I developed that allergy while pregnant with him so the plan is to have him tested. Our specialist was ok with me taking the lead in planning our foods but did want us to try chicken so that will be coming up at some point. I return to work next month so the food trials will lessen as we will only have weekends to do them. That will be frustrating but we should have a good list of safes by then and it will give me time to play around with recipes and give his gut a little time to relax. 

Breastfeeding will continue as long as it needs to...  More on that later tho. 

an apple a day ...

What about 5 apples a day? 

Mav is eating apples like a power house. The one day he ate 5 or 6! Little bugger keeps sneaking them from the garage. 

We had a great time apple picking this year! Last year we combined our apple picking with the pumpkin patch and really only picked a dozen at most. This year I have plans for those apples, plans I had better hurry up with before Mav eats them all. 

Next year should be even more fun when Ty is big enough to walk around and pick apples too. Honestly these cute little moments make my heart want to explode. 

Next fall adventure? Pumpkin patch; hopefully this weekend with my nephew and nieces if the weather holds up! 

Our 18lb bag of apple goodness. Notice the bite missing ;) 

Flashback to last years apple adventures: 

Same hat ;) 

Throwback Thursday - Remembering Daisy

Tonight I was looking back at old Instagram photos and found myself staring at the ones with Daisy. I still carry her dog tag on my keychain, part nostalgia, part reminder. There is definitely a piece of my heart that belongs to her, misses her even but I still have not forgiven her. I truly hope one day I am able too. 

So many memories, I choose the good ones <3 

 One of my very first Instagram posts. 

Always wanting to be close.

* I am unable to link back to my posts about Daisy and how she came to leave our family. At first I was going to add them in later but I think instead I am just going to leave as is.

Hey Friday :)

Our week....


1- We have all been sick. Picture a little 30lb two year old hugging the toilet barfing his brains out. It happened. How he knew to hang over the toilet like that I'm not sure but it was the saddest yet cutest and funniest thing all rolled into one. If I had of had my phone on me I am not ashamed to say there would have been a photo taken. Hubby and I luckily did not have it so bad, Ty seemed to be feeling rough but he also had a more mild case.

2- Super exciting moment when I found these freeze dried pears at Walmart! Portable, easy access snacks are something Ty's menu is lacking. #fpiessucks Not only were these snacks single ingredient (yay pears!), portable, and cheap ($1 a pack) but they are also a snack that the boys can both share and that makes me crazy happy :)

3- Tomorrow is one of the big mom to mom consignment sales, I am sharing a vendor number with our cousin so I have been digging thru drawers, pulling out toys, labelling and packing up as much as I can and hopefully I will make some money! Ty felt the need to help naturally... That boy loves "helping" with laundry. Hopefully I don't spend more than I make tomorrow...

4- I made a big step this week and purchased cloth diapers. I need to get liners for them so we haven't used them yet but hopefully by next Friday I will be able to say we have started them. I'm very excited and nervous. Nervous about the potential mess and laundry, but excited to save some tons of money.

5- Family nature walk today to a local conservation area. There are birds that will land right on you if you bring bird seed so we decided to show Mav, poor guy was not having it. As soon as they fluttered  their wings he would panic. He still had a great time and ran all over the trails, it took us almost 2 hours to get to the end. Hopefully we get the chance to go back again before it gets too cold.

Wish me luck tomorrow! This sale is crazy busy, I already scouted out some things I want to grab so we will be arriving early to get into line.

Linking up with

 Have a good weekend friends :)

The Last...

I saw this idea over at Sarah's blog today and thought it would be a good ice breaker to step back into blogging. We've had a lot going on here so the blog has had to be put on the back burner,  but no shame in that sometimes you just have to focus on real life right? Hoping things are settled enough to get back on track, and I have a few different posts half written to post. So here goes...

The Last...

Person I texted was my childhood bestie. We have been friends since becoming neighbors at four years old, we go periods of time without contact sometimes but lately have become even closer as she has now become a mom for the first time. We were talking about all sorts of baby things including how her stupid doctor tried to lecture her about breastfeeding (her doctor is an idiot she is doing just fine) and about the upcoming  children's consignment sales this weekend and next.

Movie I watched was The Lorax (for the 100th time) with Mav this afternoon. Thankfully our movie selection has now expanded past The Croods, Ice Age and Nemo ( I probably know it start to finish word for word). He is loving the Lorax and is pretty into the Cars movie too.

Person I talked to on the phone was the receptionist from our doctors office. I don't talk on the phone much.

The last package to arrive... I honestly can not remember the last package we received. That's sad! someone should send me something lol our last piece of mail was a bill of course.

Outfit I wore was my teal stretchy pants, stripped shirt and pullover sweater. It was an awful day the weather was rainy, then cool and windy, then it turned humid and muggy. Eventually the sun came out. Pretty much needed all seasons of clothing today alone.

Thing I cooked was toast. Does that count? If not then dinner last night which was hot dogs and beans. Ha ha def nothing exciting its a low key week for meals around here.

Thing I ate was my cheeseburger and poutine from Harveys for dinner. Again low key week.

Picture I took on my iphone was of myself and Mav cuddling in his bed during nap time. Poor little dude had just puked and was feeling extra lovey. I was hoping for a super cute picture but that didn't happen lol

Show I watched was technically Toopy and Binou since I watched it a bit getting Mav ready for bed, but the last show I actually sat down and watched for myself was Big Brother last night.

Game I played on my iphone was Farmville 2. I play that shit multiple times a day, its my go to when breastfeeding Ty of just when bored.


And that's it :) time for bed for me, I am hoping to get a decent sleep and not get sick myself!